ArtistofLife7
Independence Day (1 of 90)
Freedom from control and/or influence others
Today is marking the beginning of my own personal Independence Day.
Without barely a gap of downtime I've manage to be in a relationship from one to the other (along with a 7 year marriage) for 13 years. In essence I've never really been "alone" or rather been forced to sit face to face with my demons and inner child without the distraction of being consumed by caring, focusing, devoting to another.
I can't say that I've really ever truly ACTED purely and authentically on my own accord with what I feel I need to do with my life. I'm completely guilty of procrastinating on almost every action, project, passion and creative idea I've brewed up. My piles of un-achieved check-lists, mental to-do's, wish lists, back burner projects, personal health goals have been left with a soft film of dust year after year as I feel myself slowly slipping deeper into someone I don't know or recognize anymore.
So here am I. Some 90 days away from not being married, not dating anyone and swearing off the distraction of the opposite sex. Exactly 90 days away from turning the epic 30 year mark on this planet and choosing to take 3 pure, intense months of of highly focused, personally inflicted boot camp to push myself beyond my "comfort zones" to stretch into new territory and launch myself into an authentic, honest expression of me. And hopefully in the process clean out the cobwebs, the skeletons, make friends with my demons and start playing again with my inner child to finally come to live in the present, aware, alive, awake, savoring knowing how to make myself happy. Its high time I not only figured out and clarified what I want but also get off my ass and go and get it.
So why am bearing my grisly,gnarled possibly painful and yucky process of purging, elimination, newness and renewal to the flickr world? Truthfully. To keep myself honest and accountable and so I feel less alone.
Let the games begin.
Independence Day (1 of 90)
Freedom from control and/or influence others
Today is marking the beginning of my own personal Independence Day.
Without barely a gap of downtime I've manage to be in a relationship from one to the other (along with a 7 year marriage) for 13 years. In essence I've never really been "alone" or rather been forced to sit face to face with my demons and inner child without the distraction of being consumed by caring, focusing, devoting to another.
I can't say that I've really ever truly ACTED purely and authentically on my own accord with what I feel I need to do with my life. I'm completely guilty of procrastinating on almost every action, project, passion and creative idea I've brewed up. My piles of un-achieved check-lists, mental to-do's, wish lists, back burner projects, personal health goals have been left with a soft film of dust year after year as I feel myself slowly slipping deeper into someone I don't know or recognize anymore.
So here am I. Some 90 days away from not being married, not dating anyone and swearing off the distraction of the opposite sex. Exactly 90 days away from turning the epic 30 year mark on this planet and choosing to take 3 pure, intense months of of highly focused, personally inflicted boot camp to push myself beyond my "comfort zones" to stretch into new territory and launch myself into an authentic, honest expression of me. And hopefully in the process clean out the cobwebs, the skeletons, make friends with my demons and start playing again with my inner child to finally come to live in the present, aware, alive, awake, savoring knowing how to make myself happy. Its high time I not only figured out and clarified what I want but also get off my ass and go and get it.
So why am bearing my grisly,gnarled possibly painful and yucky process of purging, elimination, newness and renewal to the flickr world? Truthfully. To keep myself honest and accountable and so I feel less alone.
Let the games begin.