7celine
Little ones
There are loads of pretty flowers in the city garden, but I love these little ones most.
I called my family this evening, my mum picked up the phone, she was watching tv with my dad in the living room, after we changed to this new big apartment, we got 2 living rooms, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 1 kitchen and a big balcony. My mum loves the balcony a lot, she likes to do the laundry there under sunshine, wet clothes get dry very soon there, we were living in the second floor before, but now, we lived in the 6th and 7th, and also the highest floor in our builing. My dad also loves the balcony, he got many plants there, last time I went back home, I even found a lemon tree and some cucumbers, it was just amazing. Having a fresh cucumber after supper in the evening in the balcony is great. Everyone at home loves to do it. And sometimes we have hot pot in the balcony too. Its not a big house, but all of my family are satisfied where we are living now.
The worst thing at home is if only my parents are watching tv in the living room, then other rooms would be totally empty. the home got too quiet sometimes, my dad said that to me not only once, “I feel now it’s the time to add more people to our home, too few people here for such a big place”, every time I just do something else to get his attention.
Mum: how is your life in school
Me: good, a bit busy, and I am too lazy sometimes.
Mum: yeah.
Me: what did u do today
Mum: nothing, its sunny and very warm, a bit hot actually, I made dinner and went to downstairs, chat with neighbors.
Me: how are dad’s teeth?
Mum: oh, they are fine now.
Me: did he go to the hospital?
Mum: no, he didn’t, the teeth are fine a few days later. So he didn’t go to the hospital.
Me: I see.
Mum: what did u do today?
Me: I took a nap in the afternoon, and then I went to the lab, now on the way coming back dorm. Windy and still cold.
Mum: I see, but its warm here.
Mum handed phone to my dad, I told him I would go to Guangzhou next week for a academic meeting.
Dad: I see, then be careful.
Me: more than 10 people would go there together, its ok. Why be careful?
Dad: oh I mean , if u want to go out for fun in Guangzhou after meeting, then be careful
Me: I see. But I think I would not go out, its in a school.
Dad: ok.
I don’t know if my parents really know me what kind of person I am, mum always says to others, she doesn’t have to do much for me, because I always can do it myself. That’s true and false. For true, yes, I almost did everything myself, I seldom came back home to ask for advices, most of the time, I made my decision, then told them. But I never cross the line to them, I know what the line is. To be honest, I did cross the line to myself, I am that kind of person who would do something really dangerous and with risk. For me, I don’t care, for them, i didn’t tell them, because I don’t want they worry about me.
For the false part, I am such a sensitive person they never know. They never know what’s in my mind and what I really want. Like so many beautiful flowers in the garden, they would pick the largest one for me, but what I really love is little one. I feel scared when they try to worry about me, so scared. My mum is like , she talks about everything in her mind. But I am like, nearly never talk about the real part of myself. I do have a secret garden in my heart, I hide it very carefully, with all my courage. I know what it means to me. I love my mum, she loves me the most too, but its so hard for us to talk about what's really in my mind.
At the end of year 2008, something came to me in my life, I was like a vulnerable baby again without any protection, I know there was a part of my fault, but I have no idea how to get to the right way, as u can expect, I was falling into pieces after that. What comes to me was a long dark time, lasted one year. Sometimes I still feel it is still there, when i was deeply sad and depressed. But most of the time, I do think about the bright side, like, I start to read English novels, I begin to take photos in my daily life, I am still fighting for my graduation the last year. That’s pretty good, isn’t it? I am still a student here in university, I didn’t go anywhere further.
Sometimes I was wondering what if my parents come to talk with me about my secret garden, what if I was healthy in my heart since I was a kid, what if I was happy and talk to others easily, what if everything is changed.
Sure I will never experience those horrible pains and tearful days, if I was like that. It would be totally different world to me, I would be not Celine anymore, maybe another Rachel or Kate.
But I know I would not like it. I do enjoy my life now, I love what I do in my free time, I love everything in my small dorm, I know there is still some pains maybe it would never pass away from me, but I still feel being celine is such a wonderful thing in the world.
Little ones
There are loads of pretty flowers in the city garden, but I love these little ones most.
I called my family this evening, my mum picked up the phone, she was watching tv with my dad in the living room, after we changed to this new big apartment, we got 2 living rooms, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 1 kitchen and a big balcony. My mum loves the balcony a lot, she likes to do the laundry there under sunshine, wet clothes get dry very soon there, we were living in the second floor before, but now, we lived in the 6th and 7th, and also the highest floor in our builing. My dad also loves the balcony, he got many plants there, last time I went back home, I even found a lemon tree and some cucumbers, it was just amazing. Having a fresh cucumber after supper in the evening in the balcony is great. Everyone at home loves to do it. And sometimes we have hot pot in the balcony too. Its not a big house, but all of my family are satisfied where we are living now.
The worst thing at home is if only my parents are watching tv in the living room, then other rooms would be totally empty. the home got too quiet sometimes, my dad said that to me not only once, “I feel now it’s the time to add more people to our home, too few people here for such a big place”, every time I just do something else to get his attention.
Mum: how is your life in school
Me: good, a bit busy, and I am too lazy sometimes.
Mum: yeah.
Me: what did u do today
Mum: nothing, its sunny and very warm, a bit hot actually, I made dinner and went to downstairs, chat with neighbors.
Me: how are dad’s teeth?
Mum: oh, they are fine now.
Me: did he go to the hospital?
Mum: no, he didn’t, the teeth are fine a few days later. So he didn’t go to the hospital.
Me: I see.
Mum: what did u do today?
Me: I took a nap in the afternoon, and then I went to the lab, now on the way coming back dorm. Windy and still cold.
Mum: I see, but its warm here.
Mum handed phone to my dad, I told him I would go to Guangzhou next week for a academic meeting.
Dad: I see, then be careful.
Me: more than 10 people would go there together, its ok. Why be careful?
Dad: oh I mean , if u want to go out for fun in Guangzhou after meeting, then be careful
Me: I see. But I think I would not go out, its in a school.
Dad: ok.
I don’t know if my parents really know me what kind of person I am, mum always says to others, she doesn’t have to do much for me, because I always can do it myself. That’s true and false. For true, yes, I almost did everything myself, I seldom came back home to ask for advices, most of the time, I made my decision, then told them. But I never cross the line to them, I know what the line is. To be honest, I did cross the line to myself, I am that kind of person who would do something really dangerous and with risk. For me, I don’t care, for them, i didn’t tell them, because I don’t want they worry about me.
For the false part, I am such a sensitive person they never know. They never know what’s in my mind and what I really want. Like so many beautiful flowers in the garden, they would pick the largest one for me, but what I really love is little one. I feel scared when they try to worry about me, so scared. My mum is like , she talks about everything in her mind. But I am like, nearly never talk about the real part of myself. I do have a secret garden in my heart, I hide it very carefully, with all my courage. I know what it means to me. I love my mum, she loves me the most too, but its so hard for us to talk about what's really in my mind.
At the end of year 2008, something came to me in my life, I was like a vulnerable baby again without any protection, I know there was a part of my fault, but I have no idea how to get to the right way, as u can expect, I was falling into pieces after that. What comes to me was a long dark time, lasted one year. Sometimes I still feel it is still there, when i was deeply sad and depressed. But most of the time, I do think about the bright side, like, I start to read English novels, I begin to take photos in my daily life, I am still fighting for my graduation the last year. That’s pretty good, isn’t it? I am still a student here in university, I didn’t go anywhere further.
Sometimes I was wondering what if my parents come to talk with me about my secret garden, what if I was healthy in my heart since I was a kid, what if I was happy and talk to others easily, what if everything is changed.
Sure I will never experience those horrible pains and tearful days, if I was like that. It would be totally different world to me, I would be not Celine anymore, maybe another Rachel or Kate.
But I know I would not like it. I do enjoy my life now, I love what I do in my free time, I love everything in my small dorm, I know there is still some pains maybe it would never pass away from me, but I still feel being celine is such a wonderful thing in the world.