Kristin721
11/15/09 - 036/365 - Angel Eyes
I was thinking and worrying about an old friend today. Just wondering if she's okay. She won't talk to me anymore. Why? Because I tried to stand up for her too many times. Years ago, I stood in between her and a man that was hurting her. I told him to hit me if he wanted to hit a woman. Did she ever leave the man? No. But she left me. I realized today that she has classic symptoms that come from spousal abuse. What I did was the right thing to try to help her and protect her, but sometimes these women are so far gone in the relationship that they don't want help and will stay in denial and defend the abuser for anything. It kills me to think of the kids though. I am angry that she threw me out of her life and started saying terrible things about me, after all I tried to do for her, just because I love her. I am angry she lets him treat her that way, because she won't leave. I am angry she subjects this to the kids and puts them at risk. I am torn apart thinking about them and wondering why do I have to worry, why do I still love them, why can't I just not care? Because they don't even care about us anymore...
I was going to name this "Can I Endure Some More?" from a Rihanna song. But I was reminded of the movie Angel Eyes at the last minute. After the first couple times I saw him hurt her, I saw this movie and just that part about her brother and sister-in-law...that's all I can say.
11/15/09 - 036/365 - Angel Eyes
I was thinking and worrying about an old friend today. Just wondering if she's okay. She won't talk to me anymore. Why? Because I tried to stand up for her too many times. Years ago, I stood in between her and a man that was hurting her. I told him to hit me if he wanted to hit a woman. Did she ever leave the man? No. But she left me. I realized today that she has classic symptoms that come from spousal abuse. What I did was the right thing to try to help her and protect her, but sometimes these women are so far gone in the relationship that they don't want help and will stay in denial and defend the abuser for anything. It kills me to think of the kids though. I am angry that she threw me out of her life and started saying terrible things about me, after all I tried to do for her, just because I love her. I am angry she lets him treat her that way, because she won't leave. I am angry she subjects this to the kids and puts them at risk. I am torn apart thinking about them and wondering why do I have to worry, why do I still love them, why can't I just not care? Because they don't even care about us anymore...
I was going to name this "Can I Endure Some More?" from a Rihanna song. But I was reminded of the movie Angel Eyes at the last minute. After the first couple times I saw him hurt her, I saw this movie and just that part about her brother and sister-in-law...that's all I can say.