122/365 I, Man

I could stand for

Introvert

 

Introvert people are difficult

to know

you know

On the outside

they seem calm

so calm

They can even

be

immobile sometimes

almost as if nothing happened

inside them

as if they were detached

distant

cold, even

You tell them something

moving

and they don't seem to react

as if

they didn't have emotions

or

barely

 

 

Now

tell me ...

is it worth

talking

coming closer

to someone who has

so little

emotions

?

Wouldn't that be

a giant waste

of you life ?

 

 

But

but

before you answer

ladies and gentlemen

come closer

don't be afraid

and

come

have a look inside

have a good look

if you please

 

Don't be afraid

but hold tight

for it may be a bumpy ride

 

 

Inside

inside

is a different story

Inside

everything that happens

every emotion

every single bit of it

is

felt

and

lived

fully

and

with

intensity

Every wave of

feeling

is resounding

and bouncing

and echoing

It gets so amplified

that any emotion

can become a tidal wave

shaking everything

inside

and then some more

 

Most of the time

it stays inside

and

even when fire rages within every limb

and

even when the heart is ready to explode

and

even when tears are drowning him inside

and

even when a scream of joy fills his every bone

the outside remains

calm

apparently

 

Hovewer

ladies and gentlemen

with attention

careful attention

you could see

you could know

and even feel

what is going on inside

 

Oh yes

and sometimes

some of you among the assistance already know this I'm sure

sometimes

in some circumstances

say for instance when they are fully submerged by an emotion so strong

or

say in some intimate circumstances

that decency will prevent us from detailing any further

and they let it all out

oh then

you will not require such a careful attention anymore

and

that fire coming from will wipe out anything standing in front of them

 

But

ladies and gentlement

fear not

for these occurrences are

only

for the few who can dare to approach them

close enough

long enough

 

For the rest of us

they will continue to appear

as if nothing happens

 

 

Take this man for instance

yes this one

This picture of him could have been taken a few days ago

and he would have looked the same, I'm sure

as if nothing had happened in between

 

Maybe a slight change in the brightness of his eyes

or in the shape of the corner of his mouth

or in the way he pronounces certain words

would have revealed

to the keenest observer

the enormity of what just happened inside him

 

A very rare event

truth be told

as a few fingers would be enough to count the times something similar happened

A very rare

and

extremely

violent

event

 

Imagine

an exlosion

 

No ... wait ... an implosion

Yes ... an implosion

 

Imagine

an implosion

 

Imagine

everything inside

every thing

suddenly

in an instant

sucked in

shrinked into a tiny tiny particle

the size of a half a grain of dust

as if

everything

inside

disappeared

in an instant

in a blinding flash of light

with a PFFFFFFT-like sound

 

Imagine

a super nova

in reverse

 

inside of a man

 

 

Imagine

everything he believed

everything he knew

everything he had built

inside

wiped out

into void

in half a second

 

Imagine

the sudden

absolute

emptiness

 

Imagine

nothing left

to hold on

 

Imagine

wait ...

wait another second ...

did I say that everything was wiped out ?

really ?

oh

well ... this is not fully accurate

wait ...

 

because

after the first shock

after the feeling of loss

after the immense pain

when the blood started to flow in his veins again

when he started breathing again

when he finally came back to his senses

he could see it

clearly

This tiny tiny speck

of dust

floating in the middle of the inner void

all that was left

after the comfortable clutter which was filling him before just got annihilated

 

a tiny speck of dust

which laid hidden

under layers and layers of useless furniture

piled up for years

Mere shadows

they were

 

Light invaded him

and went though everything

and wiped out all the shadows

leaving only this speck of dust

for him to see

and to hold on

 

A speck of dust as a fixed point

inside

a grain of dust

containing every he is

a grain of dust

containing

his essence

his very nature

his every dream

 

a grain of sand

which

he would now have to let grow

unfold

inside of him

let it get bigger

let it fill him

in place of the old shadows of fear

 

a grain of dust

which was not fully lost

and found again

 

...

 

 

Maybe

by getting really close

you could have seen it as it happened

in the way his eyes blinked

 

Done