52 Weeks, Week 2

I had realized a long while ago, that in order to prosper and progress in my life, I have to become that which I seek. In order to become that woman I see in the Highest Light, I must Heal. I most notice the thoughts and actions that no longer benefit me. Acknowledge their intention to keep me safe, as well as the knowledge I have learned from those boundaries. Then I must replace those stagnant energies with ones that are more effervescent.

 

As apart of this process, so that I take more notice to my thoughts and actions, I’ve taken up journaling again. I mainly write about the spiritual progress that I’m making. Taking notes of the good, the bad, and the things I don’t understand. I give myself affirmations, I pray. I do my best to be totally honest about the emotions that I’m feeling and look to see if there is a perspective that I’m missing. I’ve also started to draw, color, meditate, paint, photograph, and talk out loud. It’s all a matter of making the time for myself, putting myself back in check. I know the consistency of these new actions and attitudes will help me to truly become the best possible version of me.

 

I won’t lie: sometimes I just don’t get it. Sometimes, I don’t want it. Sometimes all the pain, suffering, the reasons to cling to them - baffles me. Sometimes I don’t understand why this person treats me the way they do. I’m still uncovering why some things affect me in a particular way. I don’t get it yet, why I might hurt myself in that way. Sometimes the darkness covers my eyes and I forget that if I just say, “I’m doing good, those thoughts aren’t needed today.” I can choose to open my eyes and see the good that the Light has in front of me.

 

Through my own personal growth, I’ve come to know that there’s a reason and purpose for everything. Instead of saying, “why me?” - I now say, “what is this teaching me?” The Universe will only give me what I focus on and so I will no longer sit and sulk in my negative feelings.

 

I am so grateful that now I am able to recognize how different things can affect my feelings and my health. It can take some time, every so often, but I am able to notice the disruptions it makes in the relationships that I have with others. Most importantly though, it helps me see the relationship that I have with myself.

 

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Change is inevitable. Time can sometimes be kind. Gratitude is really, the best attitude. Patience, Awareness, and Trust make things easier. Love, Humbleness and Forgiveness are the only way to make things right. Moving in the right direction is the only way I will get to where I want to be. I must take this time that I have here in this journey that I call mine, to be the change in this universe that I want to see.

 

Thank you, self, for making the time to think these things through. For setting time aside to write it all down and the speak it out loud. I appreciate the wisdom that comes from the lessons and the fact that I am able to handle these things a whole lot better. I pray that I and the rest of us in this universe continue to be prosperous and shine.

Done