I had a premonition that today will be a pathetic day.

So as i walk to work, i have with me a pen and a paper, to write down all the things that’ll happen. Its a way of relaxing myself.

 

I scribbled this while i was on the bus.

 

“I wore my biggest smile the moment i stepped out from the house because i am 100% aware that ill be faking it when i get to my work place’s doorsteps.

I have to face someone, and all the possibilities of putting myself into shame are currently being entertained.

And in an hour, it’ll gonna happen.

One of my most embarrassing scenarios would be when someone talks rude things to me, with all eyes staring and worst thing is you will not defend yourself (even if you can) because shutting up is the only choice you have to pick. I’ve never been into that situation but as they say, there is always a first time- damn!”

 

and a continuation when i got home...

"I was at the pantry for the longest time ever, composing myself.

I went to the nurse’s station when i gathered all the guts in the world at last hahah.

When i finally faced him, he confronted me, but i tuned my brain to block all the vocal signals coming from that person, i think i did a great job."

 

Now, can you tell me if i am faking my smile?

 

UPDATE

my cousin aishelle just reminded me its her bestfriend's and my good friend's day.

happy birthday ecy.

 

yesterday was nikka's birthday too, she was once one of my good friends.

 

my walking calendar (joyce, at work) malfunctioned today ~_~

hahah, she miscalculated jomer's birthday.

happy birthday jomer, i know its late.

but happy birthday.

 

im not good at dates

 

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