Niksuski
Memories
I think the human memory is strange. Some things you remember so vividly that it feels like it just happened. But then at the same time you feel like "did it really happen" and often I find myself thinking that I didn't quite live in the moment or appreciate the time to the fullest.
Really special events are ingrained in your brain to a very deep level. Certain things will help you survive in a dangerous situation without you necessarily even realizing that you used a memory to help you get out of a bad situation. In fact you probably don't even "remember" that you remember it.
I feel like my brain wants to help me in a similar way to get to a "happier place". The whole world has been on pause, my life has been affected by not being able to get a job and every day seems to be the same. I feel like life is just going by without me taking part in it. I guess a lot of people feel that way because of the pandemic. That 2020 is ruined, the whole year is cancelled.
To me my trip to Norway in 2019 was really special. It was the first of its kind for me; a really long road trip independently, sleep in a tent, be free and of course with really great company.
In the beginning of 2019 my mom passed away from cancer after a (thankfully for her) short but nonetheless frustrating and saddening battle. The trip was a good distraction to help my brain subconsciously process the reality of what had at that point happened 4 months ago. At the same time Norway was so great that I wanted to share the pictures with her, but the realization that it wasn't possible hit me.
Now that it's summer again, a scent or a location triggers a memory that reminds me of Norway. It takes me back to the feeling I had. I felt like maybe after all it's not the end of the world, that the world is just a little different now. A world where I can't share my greatest experiences with the most important woman in my life. It's definitely a sad world, but I think it also helps me develop myself. Makes it very apparent that in this unfair world there are things that I cannot control and just have to accept.
Memories help with going forward. Time makes memories golden, after all. Everything I experienced with my mom is now a memory and as time goes forward, I think they will just get shinier.
The human body knows what it needs for you to feel better and the subconscious is far more powerful than you realize, it's the SUBconscious, after all.
Cherish the best memories and try to walk the memory lane as often as you need. I think now is a good time to look back and really appreciate what good you have experienced. Browse the old photos, walk the same paths, eat the same foods. Whatever triggers a memory and brings you back to a good place.
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Memories
I think the human memory is strange. Some things you remember so vividly that it feels like it just happened. But then at the same time you feel like "did it really happen" and often I find myself thinking that I didn't quite live in the moment or appreciate the time to the fullest.
Really special events are ingrained in your brain to a very deep level. Certain things will help you survive in a dangerous situation without you necessarily even realizing that you used a memory to help you get out of a bad situation. In fact you probably don't even "remember" that you remember it.
I feel like my brain wants to help me in a similar way to get to a "happier place". The whole world has been on pause, my life has been affected by not being able to get a job and every day seems to be the same. I feel like life is just going by without me taking part in it. I guess a lot of people feel that way because of the pandemic. That 2020 is ruined, the whole year is cancelled.
To me my trip to Norway in 2019 was really special. It was the first of its kind for me; a really long road trip independently, sleep in a tent, be free and of course with really great company.
In the beginning of 2019 my mom passed away from cancer after a (thankfully for her) short but nonetheless frustrating and saddening battle. The trip was a good distraction to help my brain subconsciously process the reality of what had at that point happened 4 months ago. At the same time Norway was so great that I wanted to share the pictures with her, but the realization that it wasn't possible hit me.
Now that it's summer again, a scent or a location triggers a memory that reminds me of Norway. It takes me back to the feeling I had. I felt like maybe after all it's not the end of the world, that the world is just a little different now. A world where I can't share my greatest experiences with the most important woman in my life. It's definitely a sad world, but I think it also helps me develop myself. Makes it very apparent that in this unfair world there are things that I cannot control and just have to accept.
Memories help with going forward. Time makes memories golden, after all. Everything I experienced with my mom is now a memory and as time goes forward, I think they will just get shinier.
The human body knows what it needs for you to feel better and the subconscious is far more powerful than you realize, it's the SUBconscious, after all.
Cherish the best memories and try to walk the memory lane as often as you need. I think now is a good time to look back and really appreciate what good you have experienced. Browse the old photos, walk the same paths, eat the same foods. Whatever triggers a memory and brings you back to a good place.
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All rights reserved © Niko Hörkkö
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If you find my work worth using, please humor me and read my About section!