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"Absence of fear" 365 days photo 224

Inside my skin there is this space

It twists and turns

It bleeds and aches

Inside my heart there's an empty room

It's waiting for lightning

It's waiting for you

And I am wanting

And I am needing you here

Inside the absence of fear

Muscle and sinew

Velvet and stone

This vessel is haunted

It creaks and moans

My bones call to you

In their separate skin

I make myself translucent

To let you in, for

I am wanting

And I am needing of you here

Inside the absence of fear

there is this hunger

This restlessness inside of me

and it knows that you're no stranger

you're my gravity

My hands will adore you through all darkness aim

They will lay you out in moonlight

And reinvent your name

For I am wanting you

And I am needing you here

I need you near

Inside the absence of fear

 

Jewel - Absence of fear

 

 

This is just not my day, or maybe week, who knows. I promissed myself yesterday, before falling asleep to stay in bed today as long as I could. So I did, till 14:30. Then I jumped out to clean the house. But getting dressed was already too much to ask. So I didn't do anything except waiting for the postman. I had a text message yesterday that my order had been send. But I thought it was a mistake 'cause I hadn't ordered anything. So I asked Emiel, what it was about, and he said that it was a mistake. He bought me a birthday present, but didn't checked the phonenumber and because I ordered something from that website before my phone number was still in their system. But the postman was really late. And I really needed to get out of the house. Emiel was working late. Just when I decided to go, at 21:00, the doorbell ring. Postman, with present. I placed it on the table and had a really long walk with Benthe. I found a really nice, for me, new trail. And it was so nice to just walk and watch Benthe having the time of her life :) Fresh air, birds singing, no people...

I pointed out a heron to Benthe. And we were watching it several minutes. Benthe just sat still and just watched. I made a film of it with my mobile phone, but the card crashed so I don't have it anymore. When Emiel got home at 22:15 he said: Happy birthday sweety, and gave me the present. My birthday is next week (20th of may), I don't like my birthday. So it's an early birthday present from him and his mother :) it totally made my day, 'cause it's the lens I've wanted for such a long time!!! I'm totally loving it!! I took this photo with it.

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Uploaded on May 13, 2009
Taken on May 13, 2009